Sometimes you lose sight of who you really want to be when the whole world keeps telling you who it thinks you should be. It’s easy to feel like a failure in a world of social media where everyone is projecting perfection into the void, and every one of their achievements feels like a spotlight on your own failures. You want the world to stop and notice you but at the same time you’re scared of what they might see, of what they might think. So you just end up tangled in a knot of conflicting emotions, wanting to scream for attention and disappear into silence at the same time.
I just don’t want the things that really matter to get drowned out by all the empty noise.
"Don’t think about what can happen in a month. Don’t think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be."
""She likes to dream that she’s the queen and that when the rest are dead there"ll be no one who can order her to do anything. She said, dear, that she’d burn down the whole place, burn down Gormenghast when she was the ruler and she’d live on her own, and I said she was wicked, and she said that everyone was — everyone and everything except rivers, clouds, and some rabbits. She makes me frightened sometimes.""
Too miserable to write. Feel more miserable for having not written.